This week I've read, watched and heard so much about weight. Whether it's what Kim Kardashian wears as maternity wear. Or the OKC Thunder cheerleader who was called "chunky".
This is something that hits close to home for me. I was never above a size 5 until I got pregnant with my first child. I wore a size 10 at my wedding and I was 5 months pregnant. I never got comfortable being pregnant and everything having to do with my weight was a trigger for me. I'm thinking that's what Kim K may be going through. So much of her image is her body. Carrying a baby is hard, I think it makes it even harder if you've never really gained weight and all of a sudden not having control over the weight you do gain. Telling that type of woman that that weight doesn't count because it's mostly baby doesn't help any. I can vouch! I had pants with snaps on the sides so that you could adjust the size as you grew. Well there came a point where I would sit down and the snaps would SNAP. This would send me into an immediate state of inconsolable mess.
So after I had my son, I lost some of the weight but I never really went back to my original size. Let's just say I went back to my wedding day weight but that wasn't good enough for me. Let me stop now by saying that I'm 5'1" so any extra weight on my body is immediately noticeable. So at this time I was a size 10/12, very different from nothing above a 5! Then I decided to take myself back. I started a program and began working out on a daily basis and I was doing really well. I was on my way to having had dropped 20 lbs and was enjoying it (a little too much I guess) and then I got pregnant again.
This pregnancy was very different. I was sick all 9 months. I couldn't keep anything down. I would drink Sprite and eat crackers like no one else but it would all come up. Water? No thanks because it just came back up! So I ended up losing another 20 lbs during these 9 months. Baby gained the weight needed but I didn't. If you saw me from behind you couldn't tell I was pregnant. Well that's why she's such a picky eater!
Fast forward 10 years later! I've done nothing but gain weight since then. I've doubled my weight from college and I'm not happy about it. But these are my issues. I'm not happy with my weight. I do not go around telling other women that they need to lose weight. I cover my body because I don't like it and I still intend to do something about it. At this point I've been heavier half of my life but I still don't know how to dress this alien body. I admire "plus size" women that know how to dress their bodies and body types. I don't know how to do that yet.
Do I want to be a size 0? NO! I just want myself back. The one who doesn't shy away from taking a picture with family & friends. I want to be comfortable getting in my pool when others are around. I want to enjoy Spring and Summer again. But for me, that's not achievable until I do lose weight.
I wish women read this and stop bashing each other, talking about each other. As women (sisters) we need to lift each other, give each other a hand and support one another in our choices and in life in general.
When I transitioned (early at BA) from Middle School (Jr High) to High School a LONG time ago, I don't remember any school employee/administration asking to prepare my parents for that transition. Gosh it seems like a long time ago. Back then, we were in a Jr High that went from 7th and 8th in the new building and the 9th grade was optional in the old building (old monastery) or move over to Bel Air (BA High).
Anyway, this week I attended a "transition seminar" for parents of students moving from 8th grade to 9th grade, essentially, middle school to high school. Holy cannoli. First off, my son intends to take all Pre-AP courses for his core classes and play Football, Baseball and Track. I've been very concerned since I took Pre-AP English I and Biology my Freshman year and failed them both. Now I'm not saying he's not a smart kid but he did become a dumb jock in 7th grade! He has organizational issues and tends to turn things in late.
Ok, so the department heads did put me a little at ease but wow. I could not imagine all the testing and responsibility that is put upon these kids these days. The teachers I heard speak did seem to care and really understood the transition process not only from middle to high school but from child to young adult.
I also almost cried in the beginning. I heard speeches of growing up and I realized that I only 4 years left with this kid. I'm not ready to let him go... Can I go to college with him, do you think?
I'm the oldest and other than once defending my little brother by punching a kid in the face, I don't think I was very over protective.
My poor, sweet Melly. TJ's best friend has a little sister the same age as her. And usually if she wants to go over and play, she'll ask her brother to take her over there. The other day, TJ was heading over there so he told Mel to get ready so she could go hang out too. And this is how the conversation went.
***Wait, before I go on, I want to say that I monitor what my children wear. I allow them to usually wear what they like but if Mel is wearing a dress or skirt I'll aks if she has shorts underneath. If she's got shorts on, I'll make sure they're not too short to wear in public.***
TJ: Get ready, lets go.
*Mel runs to her room*
TJ: Put some longer shorts on!
Me: TJ, her shorts are fine.
TJ: They're too short.
Me: I would make her change if they were too short.
Melly comes out with longer shorts.
They're 14 and 10, God help us! This is only the beginning.
I've been waiting for this video since the first time I heard the song. If you know me, you know how much I LOVE Snoop. Whether he's Snoop Doggy Dogg, Snoop Dogg, Snoop, S. N. Double O. P. D. O. Double G., or now Snoop Lion, I love him. Sure I've heard the comments and jokes about how he's capitalized on his fame and will take any opportunity thrown his way. Hell I would too! It's how he supports his family.
So Spring Break went well, considering we didn't do much. The oldest expressed to me what a great time he had, that in itself was enough for me to call it a success.
This being my first real week as a SAHM. It's time to get to work here. Because I'm a list maker, I'm going to try to list 10 things I need to get done throughout the day. If I don't get something on the list done, I'll just move it to the next day. My plan is to get this house and family completely organized.
Oh and my favorite thing... This JT sketch on SNL was so funny and we totally loved it!
Justin Timberlake - Bring It On Down 2... by IdolxMuzic
I've reached a goal. I don't know when I actually set the goal but I think it was within the last two years. So here I am. Today I became a Stay at Home Mom.
It was bittersweet. I've been working at the same place for 5 years and even though it drove me crazy at times, I really did like my job. But things around here are real! My house is definitely unpresentable at present. I know, who cares, right. But actually I care. I can't live in clutter and disarray. I'm just like that. :)
So now as as a SAHM, I got something I would need. A Vitamix! I plan on using a lot and yes we shelled out big bucks for it. But considering we've been through about 5 blenders in the past 15 years, I needed industrial strength!
Ok first thing about a Vitamix... cleaning it. Um, when they tell you to put a drop or two of liquid dish soap, I suggest 1 drop for mild cleaning and 2 for heavy cleaning, NO MORE! I put a squirt, um.... So I had to stop it in the midst of it cleaning because the soap was coming out of the top!!!!
Next, it's loud! And powerful. Be ready to just let it keep going. I was afraid it was going to explode, but apparently this is normal. Yup that powerful.
So get ready for my new adventures and I'm sure I'll have more time to write. There's lots to tell, everything from dance, make up, SAHM fashion (I mean do I wear jammies all the time now or what?) and organization and redecorating. OOOOH and more cooking, mostly plant-based of course!
I can't wait! I hope you can't either.
Here we are, it's Ash Wednesday. What did you give up for Lent?
Wanna know what I gave up? I gave up Facebook. It's not even the end of the first day and I'm freaking out. Like someone needs to pull me off of this computer because it's all I can do from reactivating my account!
I had to deactivate it otherwise I'd find ways to get on. I'd get a notification on my phone and I'd be right on it. This is really hard, but I feel it's important. I was getting too addicted. And really, it wasn't about posting. I got my news on FB (listening to me acting like I'll never be able to get on again), I got to see what was going on in everyone's lives. Deals! Oh my, from Sephora to Old Navy and Gardein! I got coupons on FB and not to mention the schools post things we need to know on FB.
So people, I need your help. What can I do to occupy my time until Easter?
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